Life's ups and down's since last 3 years of my life

2008 was a happy happy sort of year when I lived life careless, or simply said, freaked out. It was a breezy year full of nice nice things, mostly.
I could take life for granted and live it as it comes. It is probably not because I was very composed, but because life was pretty interesting and full of happenings. I was engaged and was going to get married in the month of April.
I usually knew that every tomorrow is likely to be as good a day as today. The whole year, from the very first day, till almost the very last day, lasted happily.
Despite the fact that granny's health deteriorated after the bypass & she passing away in November end, i consoled my myself or may be it had not sink-ed into me that she was no more there to shout at me and she had left me and gone.....
during the time i took to realize her absence i was a little distracted with a pleasantness within me as i was awaiting Amit's arrival from Turkey and the dream of setting up "MY HOME"
The year 2009 begun with a sense of loss.I started missing my granny's presence again despite the fact that Amit had come back to me and we planned on our home sweet home and set it up
The assured days will no longer be. Sometimes it feels like being carried to a cold and windy place and then being left along there; like walking on the banks of a beautiful river, and suddenly slipping into the cold water. I managed to stay cheerful. I expect me to remain so in the coming days and thanks to my job that kept me cheerful through the difficult phase of my life.
I always wished the days stayed like the year 2008.
The arrival of 2010 seemed to bring in a hope to see a cooler atmosphere with all beautiful things my way but alas! amit is again leaving abroad for 3 months.My job hunt is on with full force, now that I need distraction.Hoping to find a good one at the earliest.Thats a priority now, since we are done with the shifting back to mom's place and a trip to yercaud.
May be somethings happen just to keep you on your toes, and might eventually turn good.